To be, or not to be Vulnerable.. I say Yes!

Don’t be afraid, vulnerability is a good thing. If you have a few mins, before during or after reading, visit TEDTalk and watch, “The Power in Vulnerability”, by Brene’ Brown. Oh my goodness! Eye opening. I myself listened to it a few times, once simply was not enough.

I don’t regularly, speak about my ex because its just one of those things I stay away from. Mainly because I don’t want my feelings about him affect my daughters perception of him. This past week, he did something really nice, I was both surprised and happy. I was sharing that with a friend, she hadn’t gotten a chance to meet him, I said to her, “You would have liked him”. By that I meant the man that I was married to once upon a time.

An overwhelming sadness took over, which was unfamiliar because we both moved on quite a few years ago. I hadn’t allowed myself to feel this before. Instantly, I realized that not only had I lost my family unit through our separation, but I lost my best friend. I don’t think that I have ever admitted that.

What was made clear through this experience is that even though my first instinct was to suppress these feelings, shut them down immediately. By doing the complete opposite and admitting they were there, feeling them, and expressing them, being vulnerable to them, I am healing through them.

I am in a season of growth. Which is exciting and nerve wrecking at the same time. Imagine that, as if my life isn’t CRAY enough. I am experiencing new opportunities. What once seemed like impossible mountains to climb, aren’t too far out of reach.

I think we have all wondered, What on earth and I here for? It cannot be to merely exist, work, pay bills, repeat. I think not! If it would I wouldn’t feel the unfulfilled void within.

Stasi Eldridge said: The very fact that you long for change that you do, is a sign that you are meant to have it. Your very dissatisfaction with your weakness and struggle points to the reality that continuing to live in them is not your destiny.

My loves! Be Vulnerable! Be Healed! Be Free!

You are imperfect but you are worthy of love and belonging – Brene’ Brown

⁃ Amarilis